Our family needs lots of prayers

As I sit here typing this I am still in total shock that my mom passed away on Tues, Dec 16th. She was my best friend and the world's greatest mom and #1 grandmama. I am so thankful she got to meet Connor, yet I hate it that he never got to know what a wonderful grandmama she was. Connor was cheated by never having the chance to know her. Words alone cannot describe my grief - I am absolutely devastated and heartbroken. Mom was such a wonderful woman - we have soo many memories to cherish.... I am just not sure how to move on from here. Thank goodness we have Connor - even as the tears are streaming down my face, when he smiles at me I can't help but smile back and feel my shattered heart filling with love. She may be gone from this earth, but will never be forgotten. She is now Connor's guardian angel.

The Broken Chain:
We little knew that morning that God was going to call your name,
In life we loved you dearly, in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you, you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you, the day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories, your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you, you are always at our side.
Our family chain is broken, and nothing seems the same,
But as God calls us one by one, the chain will link again.

A special thank you to all of my wonderful friends who have been soo absolutely wonderful to me during this difficult time - the calls and text messages have helped soo much and I feel blessed to be surrounded by such great people. I am not sure when I will blog again, but I would like to wish you all a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year. PLEASE pray for my family as we struggle to cope with the loss of my mom.

Our quick trip up to Indiana

The three of us made a very quick trip up to Indiana over the weekend. The three of us are exhausted after all the driving, and I know Connor is totally worn out from meeting soo many new people in such a short time! We had a great time with Wade and Steph when they took pics of Connor - we just know they will turn out great and we can't wait to see them! Here are some pics from our trip... no time to tell you all about it - I am getting ready for bed shortly! Have a great week!
Connor meeting his cousin Amberlee for the first time

Me and Connor, Summer and Quintin, Angel and Jacoby - it was soo great seeing my friends!

Me, Connor and Adam with Curtis, Amberlee and Marisa

Connor got a giant stuffed puppy dog from his Aunt Darlene and Uncle Mike

lounging with his puppy dog!

Connor with Summer and I

Uncle Joey giving Connor a bottle

Papa and Connor by the Christmas tree - Connor loved hanging out with Papa over the weekend! They would talk and play and then Connor would sleep with him for awhile!

Family photo in front of the Christmas tree

Mr precious himself!! Love that face!!! It melts my heart!!!

2 months old already!

Connor is now 2 months old (+1 day!) He went to the doctor today and had his first shots - it broke my heart to watch him lying on the table screaming while the nurse kept poking him! I had tears in my eyes too! He now weighs 13 lbs 13 oz and is 24 1/8 inches long! We have a big boy!!! He started day care yesterday - I was able to (mostly) keep it together while I was still in the building, but once I made it back to the truck the tears were really flowing! I knew he was going to be OK, but I hated having to drop him off! Luckily I only had to work 5 hrs yesterday, and only 4 hrs today, so I have been able to still be with him the majority of the day! Last night Adam and I argued over who got to hold him since we had both been at work!! I am soo fortunate to have a job where I am a full-time employee but only work part-time hours!

We had a great 4 day weekend at the beach! Mom and Dad left their camper down here so we were able to use that. We LOVE to camp - you get to grill out and build big fires every night! And at the place we stayed at this time there was a hottub at each site so even though it was 35 degrees outside at night, you could sit in the hottub by the fire!! I do have to say, when my dad is responsible to bring the firewood, we always run out (Adam likes to have huge, roaring fires), and when Adam is responsible to bring the firewood we always have way too much! We had gigantic fires each night and still brought a lot back home with us!!! We look forward to returning in the near future!

Our sad news to share is that Missy, my family dog growing up (a cute little ShihTzu) passed away last Thursday. She has been a part of the family since I was 13!! And although I didn't get to see her every day anymore, whenever I went back to IN she would still sit with me on the couch (and expect me to pet her the whole time!!) and times when Adam didn't go back to IN with me, she would lay in the bed right next to me like she always did before I moved out. I was soo sad when I found out she had passed away and wouldn't be there when we get to my parent's house on Friday. (even typing this right now I have tears running down my face!!) She was a great dog!

We are still planning our trip up to IN this weekend. We will drive all day Friday to spend Sat/Sun there and then drive back south all day Mon! It will be quite the trip! And of course I will have a very hard time sharing of Connor over the weekend - I will be holding him lots and lots after being away from him all week! Oh, and I can't wait for Connor to have his pics taken by the Carignans!


Connor at 2 months old!
Mommy and Connor in the camper at the beach

Mommy and Connor outside

Daddy and Connor outside

Connor taking a nap on daddy - what a precious little baby boy!

Cheesing for the camera!

Laying with his puppy dog

Hope you are all doing fabulously!! Have a great rest of the week and a wonderful weekend! I can't believe Christmas is almost here!